music+passion=love

I have a confession. some people know. some might could guess. some might not know. I have been addicted to smoking for a little over a year now. I keep saying, "oh I will quit this time, for real!" I have kept repeating those words, only to fail again and again. but today, this day, I make myself not the promise to quit. but to take this addiction and for real, this time, give it completely to my savior! the giver of life and healer of my soul. if God can do anything, he can help me overcome this stepping stone in my life. he has done so much in my life and if he can do all those things, he can help me be an overcomer of this addiction. it is quite terrible, and I need to stop. for myself, for those around me, and for my future children! for the two loves of my life that need me to be smoke free. I can do this. starting now! everytime I get a withdrawel, I will draw close to the Father's love and he will be more than I will ever need! the love of my life has inspired me so much so that I know I can do this! oh savior of my life, creator and mover of my soul, take this temptation and let it not overcome me but that I overcome this temptation. I thank you God, for already doing such a great work in my soul and for cleansing me of this nasty habit! my love for you and my thirst for your holiness and closeness is so much more important than this worldly thing. it is nothing, for it only destroys my beautiful body that you took the time to create with your very own hands. this is a start to the rest of the other things I am slowly changing. I cannot wait to begin this journey. it will be difficult and sometimes a little overwhelmiing, but I know I am stronger, I am better. I am healthier than this.